Beautifully Unuseful to God

I find it amusing that today’s word of the day (from the Merriam-Webster daily email) is "luftmensch" (pronounced LOOFT-mensh). It means "an impractical contemplative person having no definite business or income."

In other words, me.

I especially find it amusing considering my blog topic for today.

The Transforming Culture symposium presented the six plenary questions in what felt like a story (as a friend said and I affirm). The first plenary session was done by Andy Crouch. (Side note, for those going to the Calvin Festival of Faith and Writing later this month, I believe he’ll be speaking there.) He addressed the question, "In what way is art a gift, a calling, and an obedience?"

In other words, it’s the call to adventure, the beginning of any story.

I cannot begin to give you his entire message, but I will tell you what it generally impressed upon me. Please keep in mind that what I talk about today on my blog is not a transcript of Andy’s session, it’s my interaction with it. For more of his words directly, I’d suggest pre-ordering his book, Culture Making: Recovering Our Creative Calling. Baker said that they will have a book coming out based on the conference itself. Also, as soon as I find out where we can get the audio files of the conference, I’ll let you know.

Back to the session. Andy went through the creation account in Genesis in order to understand culture. He developed the idea that creation was not just utilitarian but also beautiful, that, in fact, some of the aspects of creation (i.e. gold, opal) hold their real value in beauty alone. These aspects reach their full potential when they are discovered and cultivated by the gardnerers. Speaking of these gardeners–our gardening comes from and mimics God, the culture-maker or cultivator.

As gardeners, we cultivate, or create art from the beauty God’s given us.

It’s a gift.

This art is unutile. It is unuseful. It is itself, without any attachments to utility or pragmaticism, worthwhile.

This is the beginning of my story. Crafting stories, or story-telling, is a gift from God. It in itself is beautiful and worthwhile. Do you know the freedom I have in this? While evangelism or social justice are not bad things in art (although they are often badly done), I don’t have to submit to them. My stories are beautiful stories because they echo the voice of the Storyteller.

As Andy said, my stories are beautifully unuseful to God.

They are like incense lifted to God. They are like a cheetah running and running because he can, because God created him to run. They are like honeysuckle weaved around a fence that has no other use other than to be pleasing to the eye, delightful to the nose, and surprising to the tongue.

What do my stories have to do? Be beautiful.

Andy pointed out that there are two things artists do that requires a vision of life as a gift: (1) play and (2) pain (enter into pain).

This statement affirmed me. It’s okay that I like to play with Play Doh. It’s okay that I dance around the house for no reason other than my favorite song just came on. It’s okay that I have to pause the movie because I’m crying too hard to continue. It’s okay that a squirrel dead in the road breaks my heart.

Besides affirmation, it also firmly plants us in art in a world that is at once created beautifully, corrupt, redeemed, being redeemed, looking forward to redemption. One without the other is less than. Play without pain leads to art that is too easy, comfortable, willing to let us settle for a life that has no ultimate hope because it too easily finds hope in the fading. Dare I say it is sentimental? Pain without pain leads to art that is masochistic and without grace.

Andy’s bringing together of these two aspects reminds me of my vision of art as baptism: immersing itself into Christ’s death and emmerging in Christ’s resurrection. As little Christs or the Body of Christ or the Church, we incarnate His redemption and love and suffering for the world.

This is our call as Christians.

This is our call as artists–a call to create beauty without being afraid of brokenness. A call to champion the "unuseful" in our world (and here, Andy meant people that the world considers "unuseful").

God doesn’t love us and delight in us because He has to or because He needs us. He loves as an outpouring of Himself. We are beautifully unuseful to God.

My art is beautifully unuseful.

So must my love extend to the beautifully unuseful.

Genesis

Inspired by Debbie at Goodthoughts, who shares a little bit of her creative process, I started a discussion on Intersection about the creative process, especially the beginnings.

Why not share with each other how we get started, what brings brush to canvas, words to page, fingers to piano?

Share how you get started

Making My Own Froth

For Christmas, my mom gave me this handy-dandy froth maker. It’s a small hand tool that whips milk into shape.

In other words, it makes ordinary coffee into a celebration.

When did we stop making our own froth? When did we come to depend on Starbucks?

You must realize by now that I’m not just talking java. I’m talking imagination.

When did we depend on others to imagine for us? When did we stop singing songs and writing poetry and sketching landscapes?

Back in the day, not my day, but a day long before me, that’s what people did for entertainment after dinner. They’d sally into the drawing room and take turns at the harpsichord. Or they’d sketch each other. Or play games.

Yes, yes. You say, but that’s the bourgeousie. The peasant class didn’t have time for such silliness.

They didn’t? That’s where folk songs originated. You know, from the folks. As a community, they sang together, improved new diddies together, told stories.

We’ve lost a theology of imagination.

Of course there have been paid artists, musicians, writers through the ages. I’m not arguing to get rid of them (I’d be talking myself out of job!). But when have we relegated all of our creativity to celebrities and professionals?

My husband and I’ve recently joined an Anglican church. One of the great things about an Anglican church is The Common Book of Prayer. The prayer we used to say after every service went like this:

Almighty God, so draw our hearts to you, so guide our minds, so fill our imaginations, so control our wills, that we may be wholly yours, utterly dedicated to you; and then use us, we pray, as you will, and always to your glory and the welfare of your people; through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Amen.

Part of being dedicated to God means to allow Him to fill and use our imaginations.

I understand that we all have different personalities and different strengths. I’m not saying that we should all become professional artists. I am saying that just as I have to also use math and logic in my everyday life, though those aren’t my strengths (bills have to be paid and accounts have to be kept for my business!), so should we all exercise our imaginations on a daily basis, whether through dance, mothering, cooking, developing businesses that are to the welfare of the people, coloring, building, singing, writing. Using our imaginations is not a superfluous idea. It’s part of our calling as humans made in the image of our Creator and as Christians being restored to the complete image of our Creator.

So go into the world in peace and make your own froth!

Writing

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Where you can find samples of my work:

Fiction

"Ash Wednesday" in Ruminate Magazine

"The Audition" in Relief Journal

"Dies Irae" in Generate Magazine

"Matt and Marnie Sittin’ in the Tree Or Something Like That" in Infuze Magazine

"Mumbai Baby" in Mused Literary Review

Short Films/Plays

"The Office Pharisee" for Christ Church Plano

"Mumbai Baby" for DVX Film Fest 2009: Loss

"The Adventures of Don and Cho" for DVX Film Fest 2009: Quest

Nonfiction

"Art in the Time of Holocaust" in The Curator Magazine

"A Literary Analysis on the Book of Ruth" at bible.org

"Israel: Understanding the Setting of the Bible" at bible.org

"The Cause of the Orphan" in Kindred Spirit online

"My Scarlet Letter" in Three One Six: A Journal of Christian Thinking

"Spiritual Disciplines: Practicing Daily Scales" in Just Between Us

"’Tis the Season" in Fwd Magazine

In The High Calling: 

"God’s Secret to Contentment at Work"

"Tuning Your Ear to God’s Perfect Pitch"

"Working with Kryptonite"

"On Earth as It Is in Heaven"

"Of Loaves and Fish"

In The Small Group Exchange by BluefishTV

"Getting Beyond Curriculum–Using Art and Pop Culture in Your Small Group" 

"It Was the Best of Times; It Was the Worst of Times: The Art of Storytelling" 

I also blog regularly at The Master’s Artist.

Awards

Finalist, Spring 2007 Glimmer Train New Writer’s Award

Winner, Genesis 2008 (Women’s Fiction) sponsored by ACFW

A Cup of Creativity

To get your weekend going…

Yesterday I went back to the English classes I guest taught last week to hear the stories they wrote. The eighth and ninth graders used the hero’s journey to structure their stories, most of them taking the bones we created last week and fleshing them out, a few going down a different path. Let me tell you, those kids stepped up. We had psychadellic horror (Mich, Chris–you guys would’ve been so proud), a more Catcher in the Rye feel (with a scruffy beagle), a Disney bent story, a mafia tone. We had it all. One girl had perfect dialogue and character development. Another did an amazing job with her POV. One guy–the horror guy–well, we’ll have to watch for him. His descriptions, tension, and flow almost made me jealous.
And the sixth graders with their Halloween stories–scary, gory, and with humor. All creative.

Here’s my point–when do we unlearn creativity?

I taught junior highers at a church for a bit. Loved it. At one point, I taught a series on the life of Jacob. From the beginning, I told them that at the last session, they would teach me. They could use whatever method they wanted to embody the story. It’s church. Not required. I didn’t expect much.

I was wrong.

These kids, ever single one of them, not only worked hard to prepare something, but they all displayed creativity in different ways–song, drama, powerpoint, drawing. And they got the point of the whole series. They understood.

As adults, we stop being creative. We’ve told ourselves one too many times that we’re not creative, that fingerpaints isn’t good enough, that creativity is for a few people who are left-brained (or is it right-brained? I can never keep that straight!). Or we’re too busy. Who has time for creativity? By the end of the day, about all we can do is flop on the couch with a remote.

So I have a challenge. (Chal-lunge! What movie is that from? Where some sumo-type guy walks around saying, "Chal-lunge!") Actually, it’s two part.

Part one: go to SoulPerSuit to register to win a coffee cuff. I shouldn’t tell you this because if you register, then I have less of a chance to win one, but Erin (of They Hang Like Paper Lanterns notoriety) is one of the coolest people I know. If she could bottle some of her creativity, it would sell like iPods, and you need to know about this particular product she’s handmade.

Part two: color in a coloring book or use fingerpaints or sculpt with Play-Doh or doodle with fun gel pens (the sparkly ones are the best). Personally, I have recently discovered an obsession with yarn: fuzzy yarn, sparkly yarn, ribbony yarn, yarn that looks like Mardi Gras, yarn that feels like kitten fur, yarn that has reminds me of dreadlocks. So I’m spending the weekend knitting. I’ll color some too. Report back on Monday.

You know what I think? (Well, you must have some curiosity on the subject seeing as how you’re reading this blog.) Since all of us have a piece of the image of God embedded in us, we all have the capacity for creation and creativity–not that we can create from nothing, conjuring up dust into humans, but we can all create. The question is, will we?

This Morning, Part Deux

Two things I want to continue from this morning:

First, the speaking was plain, old-fashioned fun, especially the eighth and ninth graders. We went through the hero’s journey (using Wizard of Oz), then we used it to come up with our own plot. The kids will take those bones and write their story, adding ligaments and tendons and muscles and flesh and all that jazz. I can’t wait to hear how they turn out next week. These kids have talent. The story? A beagle has to save his parents from a mad scientist.

With the sixth graders, we did a Halloween scene and practiced using the five senses to increase the scary factor (Mich, I thought of you the entire time with their haunted houses and cemeteries and werewolves and zombies and pictures with eyes that follow you). These kids had a harder time focusing, but the ideas shot out like fireworks.

It energized me, seeing brains open up (not literarly, for those of you still on the Halloween theme).

Second thing (still regarding creativity), you need to see a picture of my beloved Nancy Drew pad. It’s small and goes every where with me. A friend saw it in Barnes and Noble and thought instantly of me. I’m glad she did. I suspect that I could not be a writer without it (especially considering the memory factor).
Imagine her worn on the edges, and filled with ideas: dialogue snippets, settings, observations while in the train station, and you have one of my best friends in this writing world.
By the way, Christianne, yes, the pic is from this year’s ACFW, and good memory re: last year’s pic. Impressive. The memory I used to have…

While We're on the Subject

Last week I talked about Beethoven and his persistence, a man who wrote undeniably one of the greatest symphonies ever (his Ninth) when deaf. This past weekend, I watched (again) Funny Girl, the musical based on the Broadway star, Fanny Brice. In a time when producers chose girls based on long legs and mirror, mirror on the wall faces, Fanny Brice had a definite disadvantage. But she had talent. When they needed a chorus girl, she tried out to be a chorus girl, though she clutzed around stage tripping the other girls. She worked hard, pursued her craft, and eventually proved her talent (with which she more than made up for her, um, looks). She won over the crowd that thought they preferred just another pretty face, and instead of bowing down to the great Mr. Ziegfeld, Mr. Ziegfeld waited on her.

I’m the greatest star
I am by far but no one knows it!
That’s why I was born
I blow my horn
Till someone blows it
I’ll light up like a light
Right up like a light
I’ll flicker, then flare up, ah, ah!
All the world’s gonna stare up
Looking down you’ll never see me
Try the sky ’cause that’ll be me!
I can make them cry
I can make them sigh
Some day they’ll clamor for my drama
Have you guessed yet, who’s the best yet?
If you ain’t I’ll tell you one more time
You bet yer last dime
In all of the world so far
I am the greatest, greatest star!

Side thought that has nothing to do with Fanny: I began Ulysses last night. Got through the first two chapters. Really, this was written in 1922? Because I’ve read books from that time before and even preceding times, and I’m completely lost. I might have caught about 15% of what is going on. Anyone know any good helps?

Beethoven

Everyone loved Beethoven at first. He was all the rage. His piano concertos and sonatas, his early symphonies, everyone wanted to hear them. At first. But he grew out of fashion. The crowds didn’t understand what he did. They didn’t understand those long, complex development sections, and just when they thought they came to the recapitulation, they found Beethoven had only began a second development section. The horrors! He sat on the cusp of that new Romantic age. Ushered it in, actually. But it wasn’t quite there. Not yet. They still wanted the Classical music of Hadyn they all enjoyed so much.
Give us something nice. Give us something like him!
So Beethoven did. As a joke. He thought, I’ll write something they ask for, and they’ll see how inferior it is to what I’m doing now. The piece is called Wellington’s Overture. Legend has it, Beethoven told the musicians to switch instruments just before the performance. I guess he thought it would tip the audience off to the farce. It didn’t. The applauded. A standing ovation. Disgusted by the audience’s idiocy and frustrated by his loss of hearing, Beethoven receded into dark corners behind curtains. He died a pauper.
Why do I tell you this? I’m not exactly Beethoven. The music I have composed and the books I have written cannot be in the same room as Beethoven. Nay, not even the same house. I see Beethoven and I see someone committed to his art, no matter what everyone else said. Sometimes he held popularity. Sometimes he faced rejection. But he never stopped working hard.
I will never be successful in the way of Stephen King and John Grisham and all the other bestsellers crowding the front tables of Barnes and Noble and Walden Bookstore. But Beethoven died a pauper. Jesus died betrayed by one of his closest friends and abandoned by almost all, including his Father. Those are some pretty darn large footsteps to walk in.