The Master's Artist: Sometimes I'm Lyrical

I’ve been honored with an invitation to blog regularly at The Master’s Artist.

As my friend (and now co-blogger) said, "What is this place coming to?"

Nevertheless, I will pop my head up on The Master’s Artist every other Tuesday, beginning today.

A snatch from my inaugural piece (unless you count my guest blog a few weeks ago, but since that was a trial run, I suppose we can still call this one the inaugural post):

In my college music composition study, I worked on a violin
unaccompanied sonata for an upcoming master class. For the first
movement, I took a five-note motif and stretched it, condensed it,
turned it upside-down and inside-out. I layered it in fugue and
counterpoint. I syncopated its rhythm with hemiola.

In other words, I made that sucker work.

For the second movement, from the same five-note motif, I created an idyllic, fairy-inspired melody.
Proud of my gut-wrenching, music-changing first movement, I showed the work to my professor.

“Nice
ideas in the first movement, but the second movement is where you
really shine.” He pointed his long, bony finger at me. (Okay, so it
wasn’t really bony, although it was long, but bony fingers make better
stories.) “In this lyricism, I begin to see you.”

Harsh words to take as a young composer. It got worse.

Read the rest here.

Update: Sorry the links were not previously working. They’re working now.

Hope Sealed

Two things occurred to bring together this photo:

1. I gave my husband a Nikon D40 for Christmas (actually, several family members went in with me to give it to him). I (mostly) gave him the camera because he always finds creative shots and loves playing with the settings of our simple point-and-shoot for the best picture. If he produces unusual pictures now with limited settings, I can’t wait for the photos he’ll find with all the bells and whistles. But I also gave him this because I wanted to play with it. Yes, I know. I’ve opened the door to getting an HDTV for my next birthday gift.

2. Michelle started a new photo challenge called Popinjay. I won’t spell out the details (you can see them here), but this week’s word is hope.

Now, on to the picture itself.

I chose a mailbox. At summer camp, my muscles jittered at mail call. And who doesn’t look through the stack of bills and junk mail with some semblance of hope of a real letter, or at least a Netflix DVD? Also, I wanted to get the mailbox from a child’s perspective.

You’ll notice that the mailbox is dirty, old, simple, and leaning to one side. I knew this was the perfect mailbox when I saw it. It’s not about the mailbox itself. The mailbox is the conduit for the real hope–brown paper packages tied up with string.

It’s a simple shot, but I took dozens of photos of this mailbox (because I wanted to play around with all these magical settings–in some cases my camera yelled at me, like when I tried to make it have a large aperture with bright sunlight; Too much light! it said, or something to that effect). I wonder what the neighbors thought of me as I snapped away. Stalker?

And, yes, I know you’re not supposed to take pictures into the sunlight, but I liked the bit of haze the sunlight gave the mailbox.

Tapestry: Theology of Failure

"Do we have a theology of failure? Not of suffering, but of failure . . . I ask because this is a period of failure for me. I have the Midas touch turned awry–everything I touch turns to dust."

I’m up today at Tapestry exploring failure and what it has to do with my Christian life.

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Artuality: Advent

Advent holds ideas of waiting, anticipation, peace, hope, incarnation, justice. I think of Mary, her hands rubbing her belly. I think of the shepherds, searching Bethlehem. I think of the wise men, following a star. All waiting.

We wait still. We wait for peace on earth and goodwill toward men. We wait for justice. But it’s not an empty waiting. This waiting embodies hope, the kind that is sure of what isn’t seen.

Yet.

We anticipate the day when heaven meets earth, when God’s will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

How does the Advent season inspire you artistically? I’m not a poet (as you shall see!), but in honor if Emily Dickinson’s birthday, I’m celebrating Advent today with a poem. Four pictures came to mind as I thought of this idea of waiting.

His belly round
from hunger,
under his arm, he holds
a suitcase and a
gun.
He searches the
dump
for scraps and pieces
for his sister. She cries
and cries and
cries. Desire of nations,
come.

Her belly round
with child,
in her hand, she holds
a paintbrush.
She prepares the
room
and stacks diapers
on the table. A
suitcase stands
by the door for the
night. Desire of nations,
come.

Her belly round
with cancer,
in his hand, he holds
hers.
She trembles with
cold
and pain. The
machines beep, and needles
pierce
her skin. Desire of nations,
come.

His belly round
with bassdrum,
in his hand, he holds
a mallet,
ready to beat
the rhythm. Mark
time mark.
The lights
in the stadium
shine bright, hiding
the judges
from view. Desire of nations,
come.

Now it’s your turn! How does Advent inspire you? Use Mr. Linky below to link to your posts, and leave a comment so I know when you add your link.

Merciful God, who sent your messengers the prophets to preach repentance and prepare the way for our salvation: Give us grace to heed their warnings and forsake our sins, that we may greet with joy the coming of Jesus Christ our Redeemer; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.
(Second Sunday of Advent Collect, from The Book of Common Prayer)




Art and Christianity: Interview with Dr. Glenn Kreider, Part 3

This is the third segment of my interview with Dr. Glenn Kreider,
professor at Dallas Theological Seminary, about art and Christianity.
In this part, we talk about facing the evilness in this world and
bringing in the hope of the day when God will set everything right.

And we talk for a moment about Sweeney Todd, my favorite musical!

The podcast runs under 6 minutes.

See Part One and Part Two



Christus Victor

It can hit anywhere–on a sunny, blue day with birds chirping, flowers blooming, friends laughing, or a day with deep thunder and bright lightening. Without warning, I’m overcome by the evilness in this world.

It’s not so much about anything personal, nothing done to me.

Then again, it’s always personal, this evilness in the world.

I imagine the children who never got to be children, the dancers who were maimed, the architects whose hands were cut off. Did they ever know that they were children and dancers and architects? I look at my nieces and nephew and wonder who will protect them.

With Job, I cry, Why? With Habbakuk, I cry, How long?

Christus Victor, the early church father’s said while staring the lions in the mouth and hanging upside-down on crosses. Christ is victor over the evil that held us hostage. For the hope set before us, said the author of Hebrews.

And I realize that this is the heart of the book I recently began writing–what do you do with all this evilness in the world when you fight and you fight and you fight, and people still take lives and exploit the weak and crush the innocent.

Where's Your Fudge?

I’ve taken to making my sundaes like McDonald’s. Do they still do that? Leave a thick layer of fudge at the bottom of the ice cream cup as a reward?

I spoon a tablespoon, maybe two, of Braum’s hot fudge into the bottom of my bowl, heat it up, and add Breyer’s natural vanilla bean ice cream.

The hot fudge mixes in with the ice cream. You can’t help but grab some in a spoonful, but the real treat comes at the bottom, when a gooey chocolate mess with a little bit of melted ice cream awaits you. Oh, how I love that gooey chocolate mess! I anticipate it and prolong it at the same time, the same way you do the end of a good book.

This got me thinking about the kingdom of God. It’s mixed in all around us–grace and love and beauty. But we’re not to the bottom of the bowl yet. When we get to the bottom of the bowl, now that will be a world full of grace and love and beauty. It will be the epitome of chocolatey gooey mess. A recreated, redeemed, revealed earth. Maybe God will fill a lake or two with hot fudge.

I think about this a lot–the future earth. After all, that’s where my hope is. But as much as I think about it, I forget that I only have tastes of the hot fudge now.

They say that men struggle with finding meaning in work and women struggle with finding meaning in relationships. I won’t deny that I sometimes look for ultimate fulfillment in relationships, but I struggle with wanting fulfillment in work, too. Ultimate fulfillment.

And it ain’t happening.

Not to say that God doesn’t give me a taste of fulfillment, that I don’t have beauty and grace and love now in what I do. But there’s still something missing. I can work and work and work and still not be where I want to be with my writing and speaking. Sometimes I want to be there because I want to see it glorify God, to see it further His kingdom. Sometimes I want to be there because wouldn’t that reflect well on me? Look at me, everyone. Look at what I did.

Disgusting, isn’t it?

I have these mixed motives because I’m not fully redeemed and recreated, just like the earth. We wait and groan together.

And someday we’ll reach the bottom of the bowl.

(Of course, this metaphor is imperfect because the whip cream goes on top–oh, wait. Maybe that was Eden. We finished that layer quickly. Or it melted away. Whichever.)