You know I'm bad, I'm bad. You know it.

This may come as a shock to some of you, but growing up, I was a nerd.

Yes, it’s true.

By high school, I’d managed to make friends with a couple of people considered cool, but I never was considered so. People who spend significant time in worlds of their own creation seldom attain popularity in this one. Add to that, I made good grades. And I spent more hours practicing an instrument than conversing with humans. I was hopeless.

I’d be lying if I said it didn’t bother me at the time. Who doesn’t want to be liked?

Because of this, it surprises me when people tell me I’m funny or when someone comes up to me and says, "I wanted to meet you."

Really? You want to meet me? Usually, I check behind and beside me: they’re not talking to someone else, right?

Side note: I always have been and always will be a ham. Give me a mike, and I light up. Exhibit A: home videos of dances I’d choreographed (with Debbie Gibson hat, of course) and performed in front of an audience of stuffed animals. (I usually dragged my sister or a friend into the endeavor.) I’m an interesting mix. Meeting people one-on-one scares the ear wax out of me. Being in groups of people wears me out. But put me on stage, and I’m in my element.

I taught one of the breakout sessions at a retreat this weekend (Popcorn Theology: Encountering God’s Beauty at the Movies), and people came up to me later and told me they liked me!

They actually like me, Mom!

(Does this mean I could be considered cool? I know, I know. I’m stretching it.)

Besides being considered funny and besides having people actually want to meet me, my favorite part was having people come up to me after the session and tell me I challenged them and stretched them to think a different way. One lady emailed me last night to say she watched a movie with her daughter and saw redemptive qualities in it she never would have thought to look for before.

That made me smile.



Colossians and Creation

The sunlight sparkles on the water, speckles the path, and dances with the trees. I sit on a log bench and meditate on the memory verse for my Bible study:

He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation, for all things in heaven and on earth were created by him – all things,
whether visible or invisible, whether thrones or dominions, whether principalities or powers – all things were created through him and for him. He himself is before all things and all things are held together in him.

All of this has been created by him, through him, and for him.

I look up and study the textures surrounding me: the bark–some large plates, others small slivers, the leaves–some wide mittens, others pine needles, the fish–some transparent, others spotted. Flowers border my feet–purple and yellow and white.

By him, through him, for him.

The Creator became creation and brought light into the darkness. What does it mean to sparkle with his light? The Church, a body–a body of water reflecting the son? Each of us–our lives, our art, our work–reflecting him.

We walk along the path, my companions and I, sometimes silent, sometimes in laughter. We stop and inspect roots and dragonflies and turtles.

Back at the camp, we find our places of solitude. But it is not silent. The space is filled with the warble of a cardinal, the drumming of a wood pecker, the shushing of the breeze. All creation praises him. After all, it has been created by him, through him, and for him.

In these moments, grace fills the space. Hope of the future, of a creation in perfect harmony, sneaks into the present. In these moments, my life and my art mean nothing and everything. In
these moments, the dark night of the soul awakens into a Dvorak
morning.

These are the moments of my retreat, the moments that God refreshed body, soul, and mind, the moments that my emotions overflow with rejoicing in the Creator.

By him, through him, for him.

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